"You can only apprehend the Infinite by a faculty superior to reason, by entering into a state in which you are your finite self no longer - in which the divine essence is communicated to you. This is ecstasy. It is the liberation of your mind from its finite consciousness. Like can only apprehend like; when you thus cease to be finite, you become one with the Infinite. In the reduction of your soul to its simplest self, its divine essence, you realize this union - this identity." Plotinus to Flaccus, A.D. 204 and died 274.
–Richard Maurice Bucke, M.D.
(See Bibliography)
Chapter 1
The Secret of Being in the Realm of Presence
Beyond Suffering
There is a place beyond doubt and fear, beyond hatred and Suffering, beyond lack and limitation and beyond hatred and cruelty. The wonderful thing about this place is that you don’t have to travel far because it’s right there within you.
The amazing thing about this place is that no matter how far you think you’ve fallen or how deep a hole you think you’ve dug for yourself, this wonderful place is available at the twinkling of a thought. I was blessed to find this place in the Realm of Presence. My life has never been the same. My biggest hope for you is that someday you’ll find this place and that your life will never be the same as well.
When you are seeking to know the answer to a problem, you might ask another to help you find the solution. Some one close to me was seeking the solution out of a cycle of mental anguish. She was seeking to know why she could never get out of financial entanglements. Each fiasco was worse than the last.
I received some enlightening information for her. It would enable her to be receptive to God's answer to her heartfelt prayer. I shared it with her. This book is about answers, not just for her, but for anyone seeking to know the truth. It’s about how to join with reality and Be at One with it. It’s about being free from entanglements, snarls, stress, disease and sadness. It’s about working with your Higher Self to make this possible on a conscious and consistent level. It’s about going within.
The title, The Only Way Out Is In, is what I was given through my husband Chris. It comes from a poem I had written years ago. He felt it would be very appropriate and he’s always been very intuitive. There had been other titles to select from but this one felt as right as when Cinderella’s shoe was fitted onto her foot. Chris told me that’s what he had heard. When undecided about decisions to be made, we always ask the Christ Spirit and one of us (if not both of us) will always hear the answer.
Turning Dross into Gold
Being in the Realm, is true alchemy of the spirit of man. It is transformation, transmutation and transfiguration through the Divine energy of our Supreme Creator.
What does that mean for me and for you? How did Jesus, the Christ, do the things that He did? What did He mean when He said that we could do greater things than he? You may ask, “How can I possibly do what he did and even greater at that? What does that mean? Does it mean I can command the weather?” Yes. “Does it mean that I can command sickness to leave and not return?” Yes. “Does it mean that I can stop time?” Yes. “Does it mean I can bring people together who hate each other?” Yes. All these things can be done by knowing it can be done and by not having any doubt whatsoever in the fulfillment of your plan.
Hypothetical Situation
Let's suppose I know you. You have told me over and over and over how you wish you could be free of your roommate's (mate, lover) overbearing nature. But, you add, you don't know how to be rid of him because you are afraid he will stalk you, harm you or your children, etc.
Let's suppose you ask me, at this particular time, what you should do. Up until now, you have not chosen to ask me for any suggestions or solutions to your problem. You have only shared that you have a problem.
We have to acknowledge that you have unconsciously chosen to be out of the Realm of BE-ing and remained out of it this long by choice. The Realm is where you are in touch with your God Self, your I Am Presence. Here you are invisible to harm, danger and misfortune, doubts and fear. Why? Because when you are consciously vibrating at a frequency much higher than the dense energy pattern of danger, it’s as if you have been placed upon the 10th rung of a ladder, while danger is on the first rung. Unless you come down in consciousness to the first rung by choice, danger has no idea you exist. You are not of the belief that danger is possible, that you deserve to be harmed or that you think it is possible.
Now, to get back to our hypothetical situation that you have believed yourself stuck in. You have believed there was no way out safely. So to make yourself ‘Right’ by your firm belief, you drew the energy to make it seem impossible that you could leave, in order to prove to yourself you were 'Right', even erroneously so.
There is a personal lie involved here. A personal lie is one that reveals your consciousness, and level of awareness to yourself about yourself. It has kept you blocked from truly living freely and happily. In this case, the lie being, “I cannot protect myself from being harmed. I need someone to belittle me. I am worthless and I need him to prove it to me so I can be right about what I believe about myself.”
This belief is unconscious and is outside the realm of true reality. The belief is in the realm of illusion, the realm that you are separate from Truth and in darkness. It’s known as error thinking. You are residing in a realm of low self-esteem, an energy field that encompasses a belief in the lack of self-love. This attracts the puzzle pieces that make up the whole puzzle of why you believe you cannot leave.
Being in the Realm of Be-ing is being in Supreme God Consciousness, the energy of, the vibration of Holiness, the Peace of God. Being in the Realm is being in the space of Truth. This space is vibrating at a high frequency right ‘next door,’ parallel, though invisible, to the realm of sensory appearances and illusions. You can make your claim now to Be herein.
Stepping Into The Realm
Stepping or moving into the Realm is just as easy as moving into the realm of illusion. It is simply a choice, a determination and an intention to act and move on that choice.
Feeling that you do not know how to get out of 'this trap' keeps you in this energy of illusion. Once you stop believing and claiming that you do not know, and start claiming how it is possible to be free, you will find the answer in the parallel realm, because it has been given you.
The next Realm is one step, not one hundred feet, one hundred yards or one hundred years away. It is invisible, but very real. It is invisible but full of substance and vibrating energy that lifts you up like nothing or anyone else can do for you.
The step is in mind and consciousness only. Raising your thoughts is changing your belief system. How? By deciding, by choosing without a doubt, to Be free. The same way you accepted the belief about yourself that was mistaken, is the same way you move into the Realm you desire to be in.
The secret here is that you are already where you desire to be. Once you have declared you don’t like this place, “I’m outta here”, you have lifted yourself up in consciousness to the next level. You have placed yourself where your God Self already knows you are. That’s where things happen. That’s where the miracles manifest but are hidden only by the disbelief or illusions that one is holding onto.
The step is in believing you are in the Realm of Truth. You stand in the Realm of Truth. Take a deep breath now. Choose to believe that you stand in the Realm of Truth and Breathe. You stand in the Realm of Safety and Peace. You stand in the Realm of Knowing. All the qualities you believe you need, are now available to you because of your acceptance of your place in consciousness. It’s not something you have to wait years and years for. You don't have to spend years in consultation with anyone trying to undo what's been done. You don't have to spend thousands of dollars going from this place to that, from this doctor to that one.
My question to you and those I work with is, “Are you ready to hear your answer?” If you were to say "Yes", then I would say, “Let's go into the Realm together. The Heavenly gates, the energy of the Most High awaits you. The vibration that you feel is lacking is not really lacking; you just have to change your mind and Feel that it is with you now. We will breathe together and get into a peaceful place.”
If you say you can't, then you are not ready to hear the answer to your prayer that you are seeking. You are still investing your belief in what is not real or true. You are not ready to surrender to God's Will that offers you only Peace of Mind.
When you are ready, you will be able to say, “I am in the Realm of clarity, decision, power and empowerment. I am in the Presence that is the vital life force of the universe and it is pressing gently upon me. I declare it. It can be no other way.” You will now have the solution at hand.
You would now be able to say, “I am free. I am protected. My children and I are safe. My feelings of unworthiness and thoughts of lack of love have been replaced. I am loved, I am lovable, I am loving and I love with enthusiasm and thanksgiving.”
That knowledge allows you to know you are fulfilled. Everything around you, loves to make your life easier, more beautiful, more fulfilling than you could ever have imagined. You know more than when you were in that other state of mind, the mind of lack. You have allowed yourself to do so.
I Have Chosen to See That I Am “Blind”
Even while I believe I am not in the Realm, the Kingdom of All There Is, the all of everything, I am still in it regardless of my belief. But I won't see that I am in it because I have chosen not to see where I really am. If you are stuck, it’s probably because you believe in something like the following:
I choose to see and believe in my personal lie-that:
Life stinks.
I am a victim.
I am alone.
I am not married and never can be.
I will always stay single because I have too many children.
I can't find a good guy, woman or friend.
I am always broke.
Everything makes me heavier. I can't eat anything without gaining a pound.
This is all true until you begin to See that it is not true and cannot be true in the Realm of Truth. Taking on this baggage will most certainly put you in a tailspin, heading straight into a deep ‘mind’ pit. When you land, the mental dirt will automatically cover you up and your Real Self won’t be heard of again until you change your mind.
In order to get right down to it, you have to believe you are in the Realm and that the vibration of Heaven (Christ mind) on earth seeks you. Earth becomes Heaven for you. All those who come in contact with you, will see a Holy One on earth. "The Kingdom of God is within you". Stand inside yourself, you will find you are God. Seek only for the heart of God, for to do so is the Will of God and you will find the Will of God for you. The answer to the problem is His Will, for no problem comes without its solution. It does not come sometime later but at the same time. Our perception of time determines when we wish to behold the solution.
I was called by my talent agency to do a TV commercial for a two-day shoot. I was one of about eighty people for the commercial. The first day I saw a guy and we both smiled hello to each other. He said to me before going past, “I’ve got to stop and turn around and get myself together.” He stopped and leaned against a pole across from me, faced the Sun and closed his eyes. His face softened and he started smiling.
The next day as I was heading for the restroom on the Grand Cypress Country Club, that is where the shoot was taking place, the same gentleman of yesterday was coming up the walkway that I was heading towards. Apparently, he had been enjoying the scenery and getting in touch with quieting himself. We smiled again, said hello and started talking.
He immediately began to share how he had told his friend about me the night before. He had told him that when he saw me, I reminded him that he needed to get right with Jesus and get back his peace of mind. He had gotten himself out of sorts with worries about different things that morning. He told me that just by looking at me, my radiance of peace showed him he could be there too. He had forgotten briefly. We were waiting to be called into action on the set so we just enjoyed each other’s company. We ended up talking on the set for quite a while.
You Are the ‘Living Bible’
He also said that he told some people that I was the closest thing to the Living Bible that they were ever going to meet. I said, “What did you say?” He repeated those same words. I said, “You’re talking about me?” He said, “Yes, you.” I responded, “Wow! That’s very kind of you to share that. Thank you!” Needless to say, I was very touched that someone expressed that, and that he would share it with others. My husband Chris tells me things like that all the time, but not other people that I have just met. I really appreciated his sharing. I knew he had no ulterior motives other than being honest and being at peace.
A Solution is Born with the Problem
We all have a level of tolerance for pain, suffering, sorrow, distress and depression. Finally, we may allow ourselves to see the solution. If we really wanted to, the problem could have been solved in an instant because the solution, as I have said, is born with the problem. A Course in Miracles (See Bibliography) reminds us in the text, that when we remind ourselves there is no problem, then that abolishes it. We have just cancelled out that energy from surviving in our Deeper Mind and allowing It to draw unto us what we really want, Peace.
Stuart Wilde has an exercise in the appendix of his book, Whispering Winds of Change published by Hay House. This exercise takes you to a mirror, looking at yourself from inside the mirror. Then you turn your back in the mirror at yourself outside the mirror. There is more detail in his book, but it’s a great exercise to find your power and I recommend it to you.
This exercise illustrates that when you take time to go inside yourself and look at yourself objectively, you will always get in touch with the solutions to your problems.
One of Dr. Emmet Fox's stories from a booklet, The Mental Equivalent, which comes to mind, is the tale of a prisoner incarcerated in a dungeon for twenty years. He was alone except for the time once a day when the jailer came into his cell to deliver bread and water.
The poor prisoner couldn't stand it any longer and decided to attack the prison guard the next time he brought him some food. He was prepared to defend himself if the jailer tried to kill him.
In preparing, he checked his cell door and discovered it was unlocked! He opened the door, walked past the guards and made his way home.
As Fox pointed out, he could have left at anytime if he had known, but he did not. He was a prisoner, not of stone and iron, but of false belief. He thought he was locked in. This was not a true story but an instructional one.
In the Realm of Illusion
In the realm of illusions, we could find ourselves prisoners of resentment, grief, unforgiveness, sickness, victimization, poverty, indebtedness, sorrow, etc.
All these variations of consciousness represent a lower level of thought that keep us in chains that really do not exist, except in our own minds. Change our thoughts and we are automatically freed, instantaneously.
Take Back Your Power
My suggestion to you is to discontinue allowing the media to give you things to worry about. Place yourself in a protective mode of Light energy every day when and if you decide to listen to the news. Realize that it is not a highly vibrating energy. You do not want that energy stuck in between the molecules and atoms of your lovely structure for any period of time.
Wash yourself of negative thoughts as purposefully as you wash your physical body with fragrant soaps. Clothe yourself in brightly colored light rays that protect you and your children. Block your heart from being sucked into the energy of the media vortex. You will not like the realm of energy it places you in if you allow yourself to be drawn into it.
Don’t allow your children (and your thoughts are also your children) to be ensnared by fear and negativity. Teach them to shower themselves with a protective ray of positive energy when they get dressed to go to school, to play games and outings or before watching a TV show. Teach them that they are worthy to be protected both physically and spiritually.
When you enter a room or building, your feet should be “shod in the preparation of peace”. Ego cannot recognize you when you are shielded in God’s shielding mechanisms. Once you attempt to take off your armor, ego recognizes you and resides, since you are now weak and able to be swayed to its direction.
Celebration
Allow yourself to be dictated to by your Higher Consciousness, your Higher Self, your I am Presence. Allow yourself to receive the answers you are searching for. Find your purpose, your passion. Allow yourself to make your passion work for you and through you. Give of yourself lovingly and freely. Love yourself and find 100,001 ways to celebrate your being-ness here on earth. Find 100,001 ways or 10x that for being in the realm of gratitude!
Instead of believing in your personal lie any longer, believe now that, “I am strong; I am a winner; I am through with being a victim.” Repeat those words aloud to yourself with feeling!! At that precise moment, you have stepped over into the Realm of Freedom. All the answers you need to follow through with this new belief will come pouring in rapidly.
In the Realm, in the space of Christ Consciousness, victim mentality is not offered or chosen. The floodgates of truth open up. Awareness of the solution comes as a beam of Light that you could not see before. You were blinded by your own false truth, your own personal lie. Now the door is opened for someone to offer solutions; such as a place for you and your children to live for free; free daycare while you find a job; or free clothes and shoes to choose from in order to go on an interview for a job (or other similar examples that apply in your particular situation).
While I was married ten years to a former husband, I wanted a divorce during the first year. I was ready to leave the day after our wedding day, after one year and then after five years. I stayed because he promised over and over things would be better. They were not.
Blinding White Light
The last period of time I was with him, we had not been intimate for approximately ten months. A day before Thanksgiving, we were invited by friends, who lived in Massachusetts, to come stay with them over the holidays. We lived in Wilmington, Delaware at the time. We didn’t find out they had no heat until we arrived. They were renovating an old Boston home in the city. It was freezing cold in our guest bedroom that night. Icicles would have formed on our eyebrows and eyelids if we had stuck our heads from beneath the covers. We had to snuggle to get warm and nature took its course. Moments later, a brilliant flash of white light radiated throughout my womb and mind and I knew my first son had been conceived.
I stayed married until my son was five years old. That’s the last time my son saw how abusive his father was to me. The following morning, after his father had tried to strangle me by a chokehold the night before, I sat in the bathroom singing this song softly that I was given, as a gift from Spirit. I was asking if I am ready, Lord. Am I ready to leave, then let it be? Am I ready, Lord, to leave, take my son and manage caring for him on my own? Then, let it be. The words that came to me are below.
AM I Ready Lord? Copyright 1967
Am I Ready Lord? Am I ready Lord?
Am I ready Lord? Am I ready Lord?
Let it Be If I am ready Lord, If I am ready Lord,
If I am ready Lord, Let It Be! Yes, I am ready Lord.
Yes, I am ready Lord. Yes, I am ready Lord. Let It Be!
I now had a peace, a calmness and a power come into and over me that I had not known since being married.
I got up, got my son and myself ready to leave that morning for good and never looked back. As I walked down the stairs with my son Ty's little hand in mine, I told his father without fear or sadness "I Am leaving!" He could not say anything. He knew that with the power and conviction in my voice, I meant it. He was “blocked” from being violent with me, doing or saying anything to me that would harm me.
We were protected and I knew it. The field of protection felt like an invisible wall three feet wide on all sides of us. There was no fear any more; there was no sadness and no emptiness within me. Just strength.
Instantaneous Solutions
I did not know where we were going to live or how we were going to survive once I walked out the front door. I just knew I was leaving and God was on my side. As I got to the last step, the phone rang. On the other end was my dear friend, Vijay. He told me another friend of his was looking for someone to watch her kids and pay for their food in return for a place to stay, Rent Free! Did you get that? Rent Free! The friend was the manager for a large apartment complex nearby.
Do you suppose I answered, “Yes, I know someone?” I certainly did. I had no question; no doubt that my prayer in the bathroom was answered as quickly as I released my old way of thinking that there was no hope for me. As soon as I said I am no longer a victim, no longer intimidated or abused verbally, emotionally, mentally and physically, I stepped over into the Realm of Truth where I was ready to receive my good.
We've been given the formula out of any situation. "Knock and the door shall be opened unto you. Ask and you shall receive." That's what I did, and that's what I shall continue to do. That’s what you too can do. Give yourself permission to knock and knock hard enough to be heard, meaning use conviction in your knock. To be timid is to be doubtful about whether you deserve to be heard.
Take a breath and exhale. Take another breath and exhale again. Now jot down on this page or in your journal, some thoughts that keep you out of the awareness of the realm of higher consciousness. Thoughts that keep you away from seeing the face of God, out of the healing vibrational frequency of Light, bliss, freedom and love. Finish these incomplete statements:
I believe
I feel
I think
I doubt
I am afraid that
If only I could
Once you see on paper where your consciousness is holding you back, you can then see what steps you must take to change your focus. You want to start sending a different variety of seed thoughts to your Subconscious Mind, your Deeper Mind, the kind of thoughts that do not foster fear.
That Which Is Yours in Consciousness Cannot Be Lost
One of my clients has been to our center, The Doolin Healing Sanctuary (DHS) once a week for several weeks for Reiki sessions, Counseling and Rebirthing. She is deemed visually impaired and can only come on Wednesdays, when her husband is off work. He drives her here. Until that time, he has never been inside our doors. He usually waited outside in his car and, if they had their eight-year old daughter with them, the two would go to the nearby park until his wife’s session was over.
On this particular Wednesday, before we got started with his wife, he came in with her. I asked him if he had any questions or concerns. He said the only real concern was that his wedding ring had come off the day before at work. He was washing some chemicals off his hands and it must have slipped off. He looked everywhere and it really was perplexing to him that he could not find it. He said he has never had his wedding band off since they were married.
I said to the both of them, “Let’s pray and I’ll also send some Reiki energy to the situation. There are three of us and that will make us stronger in our prayer.” I basically prayed that all the heavenly hosts involved in locating his ring be called forth. We invoked the help of St. Anthony, Christ and our guides to keep our faith strong. We affirmed that what is ours in consciousness cannot be lost, only misplaced temporarily. We affirmed that his ring would be located very shortly. We sealed our prayer with the intention that it would be honored. I did absentee Reiki healing to the ring in question and to the couple.
That same night, his wife called to tell me that her husband had his ring back. Some women were taking a smoking break at work. One woman’s eyes caught something shiny in the dirt under the sink. She picked it up. The others knew right away it was Yogi’s, because he had told several people it was missing and asked them to keep an eye out for it.
If Yogi had resigned himself to believe it was lost forever, it would have been so. The energy would not have been there to continue finding it. The belief would not have been strong enough to push away or de-crystallize the energy that doubt encompasses.
Needless to say, he wanted his wife to let me know how thankful and happy he was to have it in his possession again. He said that after our prayer, he was very calm and peaceful. Worry had left him and calmness swept over him. He said he felt absolutely wonderful.
The Golden Gift
My youngest son Joseph’s birthday is in September. I heard and saw in my mind’s eye to get him a golden necklace with Mother Mary on it. So, after he got out of Kindergarten one day, I told him we would go look for this necklace.
At the store, I asked him to go over and tell the clerk at the jewelry counter which necklace he liked. We saw one with Mother Mary on it and one with a cross and a shroud or robe draped over the cross. He liked the second one the best and so he asked the clerk to remove it from the case for him. She had an enjoyable time talking with him and asking him about the reason for the necklace.
She said to us, “You know what I am going to do? I am going to give you a discount. I am going to take $10 off this necklace for you. You are such a polite and beautiful young man.” Joseph is always given free gifts no matter where we go. People just open up their hearts and hands to him and are happy to do so. So instead of the full price, I paid the discounted price and we both thanked her for her kindness.
Joseph wanted to wear his new necklace to school the next day. We prayed over it and asked that it be protected at all times from being lost. When I went to pick him up after school, I noticed the necklace was not around his neck. He said his teacher had him take it off and put it in a tissue and place it in his backpack. He had been putting the cross in his mouth repeatedly and the teacher thought it not a good idea to do that.
When we got home, he reached for the paper it was supposed to be in. No necklace. We looked in the location where he hung up his backpack at home; nothing was on the floor. We checked his dungaree pockets, twice. I started getting overwhelmed at first. Tears started to form in my eyes. I said to myself this couldn’t be happening. Why am I allowing myself to be overwhelmed? I went down deep inside myself and said we are going to find Joseph’s necklace. I called forth the help we would need to be shown where to look. I told him we were going to backtrack each step from school. He loves to take his shoes off when he gets home. I had him put his shoes back on and out we went.
We looked on the ground as we walked one block to his school. He told me the school gate would be locked. It wasn’t. We walked down the hall toward his room. He said the room would be locked. I t wasn’t today. Usually a janitor or school personnel would have stopped us from going into the room. There was no one. We looked where Joseph kept his lunch box by the front door. Nothing. I asked Joseph to look around while I was beginning to write a note to his teacher to be on the lookout for Joseph’s necklace. Joseph squealed, “It’s here Momma. It’s here, I found it.” My response was, “Praise God. Thank you Father.” I asked Joseph if he knew why we found his present. He said, “Yes, because we blessed it with ‘Jesus’ energy.”
He resumed Karate lessons that day after school. He wanted to wear his necklace, so I hooked it around his neck. We put it inside his shirt so it would not jump around on him. After his class was over I happened to notice there was no chain again. We checked the floor of the gym and no chain. I said, “Let’s take your shirt out of your karate pants. Maybe it slipped off down your shirt.” Sure enough that’s what happened.
When you stay centered, unfettered, calm, and realize all is well, you know All Is Well. Our next step is to get a safety catch for his shiny, powerful birthday gift.
In line with these two experiences, I was looking to attach myself to a miraculous mind-set concerning the second printing of my book, Super Vita-Minds. I had separated myself temporarily from knowing it could be printed in a timely manner.
The company that was printing it had just informed me that they did not receive the index pages to my book or the order of the pages. That seemed to be impossible, but I could not prove to them the full book was sent to them. So there would be an extra cost, amount unknown at this time, for them to “add” more pages.
At the start of this section of the book, the graphic artist for the cover had not responded to the printer with all the requested information they needed to produce the cover. He had not responded to my calls. We found out later that he was vacationing and did not know we tried to contact him.
Chris and I prayed about it and affirmed our alignment with our Christ energy. We had been attempting to get the second printing completed for several months. There were distributing companies who had ordered large numbers of my books and we could not fill their orders until we had the books.
We soon heard from our friend, who is the Graphic Artist. When we told him of all that was happening, he actually volunteered to come over to our home and worked on the editing of the cover from our computer. As it turned out, we received the second printing copies by that November, just in time.
By allowing our Deeper Mind, our I am Presence to work out the details in getting all of this work completed, we had all the help we needed at the right time and the book orders were filled within the deadline given us by the distributors.
Bags of Consciousness and the Emotional Products We Place Inside Them
I am going to begin this segment by listing the items that go into negative ‘bags’ of consciousness. These are thought forms that have substance and power whether we know their power or not, or believe in their power or not. These thought forms are powerful in their negative might to bring you down and keep you down because of your faith in their existence.
Nobody likes me.
I am ugly.
I look terrible.
I am alone.
I feel lost.
I have to act funny to hide my fear.
Nobody can do anything right.
I hate dumb people.
I am supposed to be unforgiving.
I can’t forgive my wife/husband for dying.
I can’t forgive my son, daughter for the way they think.
I can’t forgive my father, mother for abandoning me, abusing me, etc.
I am worthless.
I am unworthy.
Some of us choose to carry these invisible bags unconsciously around with us everywhere we go, thinking they are golden jewels. Why do we allow ourselves to expend our energy so lavishly upon them and yet feel exhausted and lacking in joy holding on to them? We have made these bags important to us. We have claimed them as ours and made them so highly valuable.
How do we solve the problem if that is how we see it? Well, you throw out physical garbage because it’s stinky, right? Just as well, we can allow ourselves to throw out the garbage thoughts that are ‘stinking’ up our aura and our mind/body with psychic pus and poisons. You can discontinue dwelling on negativity by choice. Now you know it doesn’t support your mental health in a positive way nor does it benefit your physical body.
Here is an example of a mental surgical prayer of victory to help you perform surgery on your thoughts and mind. A friend of mine called me for help and I explained what I would do. She did not understand how to go about it on her own. So as fate would have it, we performed this surgery in her car outside of our center.
This is the process that took place in her car. She felt she had no other quiet place to be healed. She felt self-conscious inside our Sanctuary. She thought she might cry and that would disturb my family. I had my friend take several long, deep breaths before we got started. We said a prayer that included this process:
We surrounded ourselves with Light and called forth the Presence of the Christ to be with us. We called forth the male and female energy of God and let it be known that we wished to draw on Divine energy.
We desired to surrender my friend’s anxiety, self-condemnation and fear and to have it lifted into the Light and from her heart.
We asked that surgery be performed on her heart right then and all negative energy be released. She repeated after me, each sentence aloud with feeling.
We then allowed God to work His wonders by our being totally still and quiet. We withdrew any energy that had gone out to anything or anyone that we felt would cause depression.
We felt the mighty power of God working with her. She had Light radiating from around and through her body. Tension lines were diminished from her face. Her face had a soft glow of Light about it. I saw the Lord restore her heart and mind. I gave thanks and asked her to do the same.
When she came back in consciousness to the present surroundings, she said she felt like her arms were so very heavy. She didn’t know if she could drive. She felt like her body was somewhere else during our surgical prayer. She said she could not feel it during the whole time. She told me of many other wonderful sensations and feelings she experienced, during the prayer surgery. She felt great, whereas earlier in that day she had been in tears and had been made to feel stupid.
Below is a poem of mine entitled, “The Bag Lady.” This expresses what is going on in the invisible realm, which is very important to realize and know in order to be at peace and free from unwanted entanglements. It is not intended to denigrate homeless women, for I was one myself.
The Bag Lady
A consciousness said hello to her
As she entered into this world
It said that she’d be comfortable
Taking on this role.
Do this and do that
And you will belong
We’ll give you your fears
You’ll feel right at home.
We won’t ask for much
It won’t cost you a dime
As long as you stay
And give us your mind.
In our group, you’re allowed
Free of charge to remain
But only if you forget that
You are definitely sane.
Other rules to which you’ll have to abide
Is to carry 10 bags of ”goodies”
While, you’re still alive.
One is a bag full of troubles and woes
The others are illness, pain and a cold.
Incest and all the depression it brings
Must be instilled deep inside of your brain.
Support groups, for this
And support groups for that
Your schedule will be full
There will be nothing you lack.
Your bags will be filled
As they weigh down your load.
Your heartaches will grow as you
Live in the past.
That’s what sustains us
That’s all that we ask.
You may tend to think you’ve
Outgrown us at last.
But once you get into our group with no struggle
You can never get past
What’s the use burst that bubble.
Try as you may
To be saved from your plight
Just look back and remember
We gave you the right.
We gave you the comfort of being alone.
Of being a loser and having no home.
You have us to thank for investing in you
We have given you much but not much, it’s true.
You ask us to hold you
And tightly we must.
For you have forsaken all
And it is we whom you trust.
There’s no need to fuss.
There’s no need to cry.
Just carry your bags
Don’t pretend you can fly.
We’ll be in touch with you
Every day of your life
Bringing bundles of joy
Packaged brightly with strife.
We are the gift you have asked for
To remember your name
To embrace you, mis-use you and
Mis-create is our game.
We are what you think.
We are what you know.
Consciousness is the blessing
For whatever you sow.
You can unplug from us
Anytime that you wish
But you can be sure
We won’t show you the switch.
You have us to thank for enlightening your path
You are the “Bag-Lady” and
We,
We just laugh.
We Are ~Your Tribal Consciousness.
In the following chapter, you will learn how I used the Realm of Silence to bring everything I needed to me in time of uncertainty. You can use this same formula to deliver yourself from any negative situation. You can also use it to free yourself from any “Bag-Lady” consciousness that may be holding you down. The next chapter relates to the above poem. I am with you in Spirit as you explore and embrace YOURSELF!
Brief Points of Chapter
In the Realm and space of Christ Consciousness, victim mentality is not offered or chosen. The floodgates of truth open. Awareness of the solution comes as a beam of Light that you could not see before, but was there in a parallel reality waiting for you to see it.
Being in the Realm of Be-ing is being in Supreme God Consciousness; the energy and vibration of Holiness; the Peace of God. Being in the Realm, is being in the space of Truth. This space is vibrating at a high frequency right ‘next door,’ parallel, though invisible, to the realm of sensory appearances and illusions.
Begin taking responsibility for your thoughts and actions.
Make it your intention to be free.
Know that all your actions are preceded by your thoughts.
Give up all excuses that you need to carry these bags around with you any more. Choose the Baggies to be Light, filled with Light, Light and more Light.
When you are ready to receive your good, release your old way of thinking that says there is no hope for you.
As soon as you say, “I step over into the Realm of Truth,” then you are open and ready to receive you good.
You want to start sending a different variety of seed thoughts to your subconscious mind, the kind that does not foster fear.
Choose now to Be in the Silence. Choose now to still ego’s squawking. You are the Master. Remember who you are. Change our thoughts and we are automatically freed, instantaneously. Give yourself permission to knock and knock hard enough to be heard, meaning use conviction in your request. To be timid is to be doubtful that you deserve to be heard by God.
Savor The Splendor
Dust every piece of sadness from your heart.
Invite the Angel of Joy to carry you
To a place you’ve been to before
But forgotten.
Savor the splendor of the scent of laughter
For it will have transported you a far distance
By the time you will have returned.
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Chapter 2
The Secret of How to Be in the Realm of Silence
You Should Gather Your Belongings
In 1978, I had heard in a dream to resign from teaching. The morning of the dream, I asked to be shown in the Bible, a passage that would confirm what I had been told. I always like to ask to be shown in 3’s to be sure it’s not ego speaking but the Holy Spirit. The passage I was shown by Spirit, told me to ‘pack my bags and burn the bridges of security behind me.’ I was informed that I was to pursue a career in music.
I had taught elementary school for ten years. After the confirmation, I decided to explore the possibility of playing music in another country for a living. I had saved up enough money to fly to London, and was intending to perform in some of the restaurants and cafés there, and perhaps play on the streets as well. I had been to London before with my oldest son Ty, who was eight years old at the time. I had developed some leads by playing there before and felt I could make a go of it.
I had a very emotional time leaving him behind. Trying to explain to him I might not be back or why I felt I had to go was very emotional. Since his father had gotten custody of him, and was putting up a fight every time I tried to see him, I did not feel I was getting anywhere.
His father had, in my opinion, “arranged” to get custody of my son and kept him from me in as many ways as he could devise. He was President of the School Board and knew a lot of influential people. I felt I had to go on with my life and not get involved in hating the things I couldn’t control. I did still manage to see my son and be with him after school and in as many ways as I could think to see him before I decided to leave Wilmington.
Before making the decision, I turned to a passage in the Bible, asked Spirit to place my finger randomly to my answer to leave or not. That was the way it was confirmed that I should gather my belongings. So, having just bought a brand new Ford Mustang, I heard to sell it. I sold all my Mary Kay cosmetic products to a fellow Mary Kay representative. I flew to London shortly after, saying my good-byes to my son, my mother and friends.
I burned all my financial bridges behind me as I was instructed. I resigned from teaching with a doctor’s recommendation that I needed rest from the stress that was beginning to take form at my new school. Prejudice was trying to rear its ugly head towards me and I was being made aware of it through Spirit.
I had a passport that was already in effect, so all I had to do was purchase my tickets and pack. The day came for my departure and all went well. My plane arrived in Heathrow Airport and I deplaned. My baggage and guitar went through and was quickly confiscated from me. Security asked me my name and why I was there. I said to vacation and perform music. They told me if I did not already have arrangements to work there previously, that I would not be allowed through.
I was escorted from the airport turnstile by two security people and led into a room where I was interrogated about my true purpose there. They read through my personal belongings, letters and papers, searched my suitcases and I felt very invaded and helpless. They went through my baggage over and over many times and could not find what they were looking for, whatever that was.
No One Allowed a Phone Call
They moved me and placed me into a small room with other detainees. There were probably about thirty-five to fifty adults and children in that same room. No one was allowed out. No one was allowed to make a phone call.
We were all in this room pretty much from the time we got off the plane until way after dusk. They fed us, as I recall soup and a bologna sandwich. No one explained anything to us or told us how long we would be detained.
Finally, after some ten hours, someone came in and told us we would be taken to a motel and put up for the night. They would foot the bill.
I was interrogated one more time and then notified that I would be sent home the very next day. During my interrogation, they asked me if I had fare back to the states. I thought for a moment about my answer and while I was thinking, they jumped in said they would pay my fare back to the states. I thought that was great! If I had to go back, I was being treated to a free flight.
Slow Motion
The whole time in that very small room with all the other passengers, I heard and saw disgruntled, angry, sad and fearful faces. I concluded that I needed to be at peace and to trust that all would work out in my best interest. By doing that, I became a virtual cocoon immediately. I could see mouths moving, but I could not hear anything. Everything was in slow motion and silent. I was an observer of the others and myself. I was in a place and space of Silence where I could send them love and compassion and to let them know not to worry. All would be well.
I had been lifted into the Realm of Silence by choice by surrendering. There was a complete assuredness that lifted me up and out of the energy of depression and worry that was filtering into this room. I sat in a little corner of the room by myself so I could be healed and to anchor the healing in our "prison." I did not know how to describe what was happening at that time, but now I do.
After some ten or twelve hours that day, someone came to me and informed me that I would be put up in a motel room. I was told that the same taxi person who drove me there would pick me up in the morning. I was given stern directions not to leave the motel. I would be escorted back to Heathrow and given a plane ticket back to America. As long I had my luggage and guitar, that's all I cared about at the time.
The Closed Door
I was never clear, on a human level, why I was sent back. But on a Higher Plane, I knew that the door was shut closed for a divine reason. It was a test of my devotion to follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit. When you listen and do not question, as Abraham listened and did with his son Isaac, you will find many, many blessings in the package. I would not find that out so clearly until I met Chris, who is now my husband of twenty-nine years. I had to come back to the United States to meet him in Philadelphia. He, on his own journey was now finding his way to me and I to him. And if I were in London, how would that come to be? It was just a little detour.
We wrote a song some years later entitled ‘Soul Mates’, which tells how we would recognize each other when we saw one another on this plane of existence. He would recognize me by the perfume of my million-dollar smile and I would recognize his beautiful wise soul looking from behind those blue sparkling eyes. A higher purpose was at work here definitely directing events in our worlds.
You will find out more about our meeting in a later chapter. I am with you in Spirit as you explore and embrace YOURSELF in the Silence!
Brief Points of Chapter
Only in the Silence can you hear all things.
Only in the Silence can Peace Be with you.
Only in the Silence can you be grateful, full of gratitude and able to calm all those around you with your Light Presence.
Practice Be-ing in the Silence for 5 minutes a day and breathing.
“…I dare to foresee and prepare for my expanded good now. This opens the way for it to appear.”
―Catherine Ponder (See Bibliography)
Chapter 3
The Secret of Being in the Realm of Divine Love